Disgusting. But sooooooo goooooooooooood. And breadsticks. And que papas (if you don't know what they are, don't order them because you'll become an addict like me). It's a miracle I didn't throw in a 2-liter of Dr. Pepper too. But that does sound quite tasty.
See? It's happening!
I need self-control now more than ever. I tried to wear flats to work today (I've been getting away with wearing flippy-floppies because my manager's cool like that) and it hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrt. There's no way I'm going to be able to do any kind of real cardio--unless anyone has any suggestions? I know there's rowing machines at the gym but I have no idea how to use them....so enlighten me if you do!
Anyway. Onto the linkup with KTJ for the 5k Spring Training Challenge. No cardio doesn't mean I can't be healthy and still work toward getting fit. I just haven't quite convinced myself of that. Yesterday I posted my goals for this week, and one of them was to do toning exercises every day at home. Obviously yesterday I failed. But this morning I scoured my Pinterest in search of some good workouts and I think I found some I can do:
|Love handles are my problem area, I've decided.|
|EVERYTHINNNNGGGG!!!! Ahahaha I die.|
I also found this pin which realy spoke to me...given the situation lol.
I was talking to a friend a few weeks ago about how I've never really had to push myself in life. Don't get me wrong, I've always been a goal-setting person and I usually achieve the goals I do set for myself--like graduating college in 4 years, graduating with honors, being the VP of my sorority, etc etc. However, in order to achieve those goals I never reaalllllly had to push myself. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I was that kid you loved to hate because I could get b's and a's without really trying. If I DID actually try, I probably could have graduated Magna or Suma Cum Laude instead of just plain old Cum Laude (Btw, I barely squeezed by with exactly a 3.25 final GPA). Not once did I EVER sacrifice fun for studying or homework in college. Never once. If I wanted to go out to a party or hang out with friends, I did. I knew just how much effort I needed to put into school to get acceptable grades and I never did anything more than that. And I think that also has to do with why I never succeeded in anything athletic in my life. I thought about trying a few sports throughout my life, but never felt like I was ever going to be good enough. If I knew I wasn't going to be good at something without trying, I wouldn't go for it.
I don't know if any of that makes sense and now I see I just went off on a major tangeant so I'm sorry if you read all that haha. And if you didn't, I understand.
So I guess the moral of the story is...I don't have self-control because I've never disciplined myself enough to have any...because I've never been in a situation where I had to have any. Even with my whole weight struggle, if you read my first post ever (which you totally should if you haven't), you'll remember how I said I haven't been completely unhappy with my weight or my looks in a lonnnnnng time. And when I was I was going through puberty and grew out of it. For the past 5-6 years I've always been told I'm "not fat" and I'm "average." And I've been OK with that because I'm good at hair and makeup and I dress well so I pretty much make myself a 7 on the pretty-scale (maybe I'm being generous. But I think I'm pretty enough).
Sorry, more rambling. I'll stop now.
I hope everyone else is staying motivated, and if you know how to use that arm-cardio machine at the gym, HIT ME UP!
PS, I'm totally changing the look of this blog. Again. Be ready.