Wednesday, November 27, 2013

WIW--still struggling.

Hey fools! Sorry no post the last couple days. This is going to be quite a jumble, as usual, on a weigh-in Wednesday.

Friday night was awesome. We had a girls night and drank wine and played Cards Against Humanity (quite possible one of my favorite games of all time).

Saturday........I dyed my hair. I promise I'm not naked in this picture:

Yep, I finally did it!!! What do y'all think??? I also got Aveda Black Malva conditioner, which I've read is really helpful for preventing fading. In the past when I've gone dark it has always faded to a mousy brown sooo quickly, which was a big reason I hesitated doing this for so long. So fingers crossed that expensive shit works like it's supposed to.

Sunday Cassandra and I went for another hike in Mission Trails. We didn't track how long it was, but I think it was about 3 miles roundtrip. It was a GORGEOUS day.

I love Mission Trails.

So Monday I didn't wake up and run. I didn't get much sleep all weekend, so I was just sleepy. I know, excuses excuses.

Tuesday I went. I told myself I was going to go that mile without stopping no. matter. what. And I did. I'm starting to really get it when I run. If you run, you know what I mean. But what I'm still struggling with is finding the motivation to GET OUT OF BED. Why am I STILL having a hard time with this??

I'm just starting to get really frustrated with myself. I didn't gain or lose anything this last week. And that's all my fault. I better get up and run tomorrow because we all know I'll gorge myself on Thanksgiving dinner later on.

I'm also still frustrated in other areas of my life. Mainly my career. I told y'all I didn't do as well as I had planned on the GMAT, and I don't know if y'all realize just how overqualified I am for my current job. I have a business administration degree (with honors) in Hotel Management. And I am doing a job that, quite frankly, you could train a monkey to do. And I thought it was boring when we were busy. Y'all. Now that we're "slow" in the off-season, I literally sit there for HOURS without a single phone call. I'm not exaggerating. And I can't find anything else because I don't have a year of hotel experience. Bitch, I have 4 years of hotel experience in my opinion with what I went through in college!!!! Ahhhhh. I just feel like I'm stuck. I'm living with my mother. I'm living paycheck to paycheck. I'm baaaaarely scraping by every two weeks when I get paid after all my bills are paid and, you know, I live life. I just feel like a complete failure. Hopefully I get into an MBA program and that will be the tide-changer in my post-grad life. Because something has got to change. I know I need to give it more time at my current position before I start looking elsewhere, but how long is enough??!!! I definitely think me feeling like such a failure at life is a factor in having a hard time motivating myself to get healthy and fit again.

But, I have realized I need to start tracking my food again. I added my ticker at the bottom of the page because it's way too big for my sidebar (as if that will keep me more accountable or something) so feel free to add me on there too. I did start tracking with MFP after I had stopped doing WW, which is why my total lost so far is only 4 pounds. It's really 20.

Created by MyFitnessPal - Nutrition Facts For Foods

Anyhoo, sorry this post has been kinda emo. I'm just telling y'all what's really going on in my head and I guess hoping somehow it helps everything.

I hope y'all are having a better weigh-in Wednesday than me!

Weigh In Wednesday

Happy Thanksgiving!!!


  1. Wow, it's really dead there! I'd have to bring something to keep me occupied.

  2. Hang in there. You are young, bright, and beautiful! Things will get better. Take time to reflect on your goals, but don't forget to cherish these times right now. And way to go with the running!! As far as getting out of bed to do it.... I can't help you there. When you figure it out, let me know! Happy Thanksgiving!

  3. Love the hair! Sorry about the job situation.. feeling stuck sucks :( things have got to get better though, right?? Beautiful trail pictures too!