"I want you to feel like you're going to die."

Hey fools. Sorry I've been so spotty posting lately still. I don't have much to say today either, to be honest. But, it really grinds my gears when bloggers go MIA for days at a time but are clearly still active on other social media outlets (I'm sure we can all think of a few) and we all know it's probably just for attention. Well, even though this blogs pretty teeny, I didn't want anyone to think that was the case with me.

I did Level 2 on 30DS on Wednesday and it was HARD. I loved when Jillian Michaels actually said "I want you to feel like you're going to die." IT'S WORKING, B$*&%!!!



Wednesday was also my supervisor's birthday which of course meant tons of sweet treats. My manager also bought us Chinese food from across the street. I was good in choosing brown rice but I also had sweet and sour chicken, which was not so good of a choice. I also had some cake, chips and guacamole, and a sprite. And there were leftovers yesterday. So clearly I haven't made a whole lotta ground as far as self-control goes.

I've also been in a funk since I got back from Colorado. I've mentioned before how I'm a control freak and I want to know exactly what's going on at all times. Well, Chris is definitely not an easy one to 'control.' I've seen him casually leave his phone at home while he leaves the house for an entire day, and it not phase him one bit. And the only times I really got to talk to him in-depth since he's been home has been when he's really not doing much of anything else. So naturally, since one of his best friends is visiting him this week who he hasn't seen in a year, I've hardly heard from him, other than when I text him. I know in my heart it doesn't mean anything, but it still gets to me. It literally grates away at me. And the truth is I don't have a whole lot to say to him either, so what's the point in trying to have a conversation, but I just want to talk to him, dammit! I guess it can be spun to be a good thing though that I've talked to his mom more than him the whole time he's been back there (with the exception of my visit).

See, this is why I didn't want to post today. It wound up being a jumbled mess of me rambling.

Oh well. In other news, because I went to Colorado last weekend I didn't get my hair done. So tomorrow's the big day. I'm STILL undecided. Why!?!?!?! OK, here's the pros of going blonder: It's actually easier for me to maintain. My natural color is a very light brown or a dark blonde, depending on the opinion of who's doing it. So whenever I've gone dark in the past it fades super fast (partially because I tan and don't cover it up with a shower cap, partially because I'm in the sun all the time). I also get lots of compliments on it when it's blonde. The big con is that, well, I have to maintain my tan. Which I haven't been very dilligent at here lately.

Which brings me to the big pro of going darker: I can get white and not look totally washed out haha. It would also be a nice change from what I've had the majority of the last year. The downside is, like I said, it's always faded very quickly and it would be probably more expensive upkeep than going lighter.

Also, I'm still undecided on bangs or not. Go here to my original post and please tell me what you think!!! The feedback I've gotten so far has literally been split down the middle.

If you need a refresher of the options, here you go:


I'm mainly leaning toward the bottom two colors here, although platinum might be fun lol.


I'm leaning actually toward the upper-left, kind of a reddish-brown.

Decisions, decisions.

Anyway. Sorry for the random post. Hope y'all have a great weekend!

Peace out, playaz.